I want there to be a moment in FCATFZV when Axel and Roxas are twenty-two and old pop punk comes up on their shuffle and instead of being like ‘ew’ the knee jerk reaction is to turn it up even more and begin screaming along in front of everyone and their mother about how much they hate their town. 


I just want to say that you are amazing, your writing is amazing, & I will stick with you through everything you write. You're not only an amazing writer, but an amazing person too

What a pick me up. I’m so tired right now, so sorry if this doesn’t sound sincere, but thanks. I know I no longer mass post fanfiction the way I used to, but you know — school and living my life and things. 

It’s good to know there’s always going to be select people out there who have my back through whatever I decide to do. It means a lot and basically continues to give my half-wit writing some kind of purpose. 

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There’s nothing really wrong with sympathizing with Axel, he’s someone who can hit a lot of chords with people, just because he’s this arrogant jerk who can be highly cynical about the world doesn’t mean we have to hate him.

You’re right. I remember when I first conceived the story Juno hadn’t been out that long (maybe three years), and it was sort of when there was an upshot of stories where young characters were really smart but still kids? Like that weird indie film trend with the overly quirky but embarrassingly real situations and a lot of acoustic bands on the soundtracks. I endorse youthful insightfulness, and while huge chunks of FC make me wanna gag on a spoon and apologize, there are still really profound snippets of dialogue where I’m like — yeah, it was that way, huh? And sometimes it still is that way almost five years later. It’s more or less understanding what’s problematic and considering the environment the characters derive from before judging them for their crude and sometimes disgusting mouths.

I could never tell someone they’re wrong for sympathizing with Axel. At one point his coping mechanism was a direct reflection of my own, and I wanted people to find solidarity in what it’s like to be an understandable piece of shit. People are so quick to call people on their shitty traits and label them as monsters when adolescence is hard. It’s hard even when it’s seemingly at its least complex. Mainly because it’s when you realize there’s so much to be angry about, and I remember constantly wanting to run away while growing up isolated and oppressed. It fucks people up beyond belief, and I’m pretty done with this website believing problematic behavior manifested through abuse is unforgivable. I will die defending anyone recovering from a disenchanted childhood. Telling someone they don’t have an excuse to be angry and a little messed up afterward is the equivalent to telling a mentally ill person to ‘get over it.’ 


all of your writing and though processes make me so happy, thank you so much

Blows raspberry

I mean, I feel bad for the people who’re going to be following me throughout the end of this year because I just love to over analyze my own writing and overthink exactly why I’m doing something. It’s just fanfiction, but it isn’t — you know the drill. Thanks for reading my junk, though.

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I feel like no one GETS Axel in Firecrotch. When I first read FCATFZV everyone sympathized with him and it used to make me mad lol.

I mean, he’s a kid? A dumb idealistic kid who thinks he knows everything and suppresses, suppresses and suppresses until he’s just a massive asshole no one can stand. I couldn’t write him right a few years ago because I couldn’t write, so it’s like — whenever people misconstrue things now while reflecting on it I’m not even mad about it? And I’m sort of an ‘Axel apologist’ near the end of the story because everyone gets theirs when it’s all said and done. I don’t like to play ‘who had it worse.’

If there’s one thing I’m going to do with this redo is spread out the timeline significantly more. The last story only drilled through about two years maybe? And I knew nothing about transitioning and movement. I’d never even workshopped before starting FC. I think pacing it out longer and making the characters become young adults (because I now actually know what it means to be a young adult) could change people’s perspectives on everyone. Not to mention, most of the people reading the redo are just old patrons of the original story. We’ve all grownup significantly. I want to play on that.  

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Fire Crotch and the Friend Zone Virgins

Chapter Two

"No way. I wear babies for condoms and carve the beast's sign into the back of my neck all while confessing sometimes the Bible gives me nocturnal emissions. I, Axel, have given them every reason to believe I'm evil."  

Before the sickness, before the band, before Roxas vanished; Axel Vasquez believed he was standing on an untouchable pedestal in the center of a Kentuckian hellhole. Submerged in the Louisville hardcore scene throughout the ass end of the 2000s where queer intolerance was at its imploding point, everyone and their mother was trying to run away from southern stultification and the stars never seemed to align quite right, Axel promised himself he would never come home once he left for NYU. That is, until he found a reason, until he realized a teenage boy can't always be right, and until Axel discovered that sometimes, to make life work, you have to perform the greatest balancing act of all time.   

Pairing: Akuroku
Rating: Mature
Length: 4,093 words
Warning: On AO3

the-autumn-grove whispered:

As I was reading the new chapter, I found the whole concept of Roxas, an uber-religious, Waltons wannabe pulling out a beanie as soon as he left Axel's house to be absolutely hilarious. It's like he puts across this upstanding citizen image in the most sincerest of sincerities and then still tries to pull off the casual teen look and it just feels so jarring. I actually spent most of the chapter laughing at times because of how out of touch with reality Roxas' parents were.

I have this mental image of his dad tugging it off before he walked into the house like — rude as fuh, Roxas. But nah. I mean, he is a casual teen. I think the hyper white, American, Christian stereotype Axel plays on makes people automatically want to drench Roxas in Ralph Lauren and assign a ‘try hard’ personality, but if you pay attention to religious based groups that appeal to trends they’re usually pretty spot on and chill about it because they want to appeal to everyone. So, it’s like 2010 when the V-neck took over and boys were wearing the kind of jeans that dug their balls into their intestines with slip ons. Like, basically the uprising of the thoughtless casual fashion we have now? Things really haven’t changed much on a base level.

What’s funny is Axel digs into Roxas about his appearance constantly, but they dress virtually the same way with the only difference being how they brand themselves and god forbid Axel might wear more neutral colors and obscure brands. They actually look like they’d run in the same group. I think it’s really important for people to keep in mind that Axel’s a very bias narrator who doesn’t acquire a lick of sense until literally the final half of the story.

Roxas’ parents are mostly just mortifying. I can’t tell you how many times I heard kids had to print off the lyrics to their Christian hardcore shit like MyChildren MyBride (I really liked them) and hand it off for inspection. It was a weird era. I can’t believe I have to think about it so much now. 


FCATFZV makes me fall in love with akuroku all over again. You're a terrible magical person.

Thank God. Don’t make it sound like such a bad thing. Best ask I’ve had in forever, though. Makes me feel like I’m doing the world a much needed disservice. 

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Fire Crotch and the Friend Zone Virgins

Chapter Two

"No way. I wear babies for condoms and carve the beast's sign into the back of my neck all while confessing sometimes the Bible gives me nocturnal emissions. I, Axel, have given them every reason to believe I'm evil."  

Before the sickness, before the band, before Roxas vanished; Axel Vasquez believed he was standing on an untouchable pedestal in the center of a Kentuckian hellhole. Submerged in the Louisville hardcore scene throughout the ass end of the 2000s where queer intolerance was at its imploding point, everyone and their mother was trying to run away from southern stultification and the stars never seemed to align quite right, Axel promised himself he would never come home once he left for NYU. That is, until he found a reason, until he realized a teenage boy can't always be right, and until Axel discovered that sometimes, to make life work, you have to perform the greatest balancing act of all time.   

Pairing: Akuroku
Rating: Mature
Length: 4,093 words
Warning: On AO3

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